I sit here in my own pain and doubt,
Asking God to please help me out,
This terrible addiction, I am living through,
I feel I need help, But God whispers," it's you".

He tells me of the inner strength he has gave,
It's just the bad decisions I've made,
Now is the time to draw on that strength,
Maybe the duration will shorten in length.

I pray for my children, for God to keep safe,
Never has he failed me, so I must keep my faith,
I prayed for a man, to stand by my side,
He gave me a man that is my joy and my pride.

My life right now, leaves me desperately alone,
I wish I could curl up in my Mom's arms at home,
I'd like to cry out from deep in my soul,
To cleanse my body, and make me feel whole.

The light is there, but right now I'm blind,
Can't seem to shake these chains that bind,
I keep wondering how I got here,
The answer is simple, just not very clear.

I'm a Mother, with children and needs,
This is why I must find my way clean,
God you have shown me such beauty and glory,
I pray for a happy ending to my story.

If ever you feel the need for pills and such,
Just open your heart, for God's healing touch,
Had I done this when I felt so alone,
I wouldn't be trying to find my way home.

                                                                            Saif Malik...